Monday, June 11, 2007

On a Wing and a Prayer

I've been pretending. I won't turn on any fans, air, and I wear lightweight sweaters and jeans. I won't let heat get to me. I'm mentally preparing for Florida weather. I can take it.

My job bores me immensely. Seriously, I didn't go to college to become a secretary with minimal benefits and opportunity. An unappreciated one at that. I wish they'd stop pigeonholing me. It's just so boring here, and the folks think I don't have a mind at all.

I went paddleboating this weekend. It helped me with my fear. I'm greatly scared of the water. I almost drowned in 8 ft. of water when I was nine years old. I wish I knew how to swim. If I went to public school, I could've learned.

I'm trying to make things work out between my boyfriend and I. I've just been so angry since the abortion. I wanted to keep my baby, though I know I could've afforded to.

Life is funny like that.

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